Me and my SO have been arguing a whole lot lately, and a great deal of it is over things she is doing, or saying, or thinking. For example, two or so weeks ago she got into a fight with her mother over her needing to make a phone call to the doctor to get some files faxed. She asked her mother if she could get a ride to the office to pick the files up in person should they not get faxed in time. Her mother said “Yes, but call ahead first to make sure they actually have the file before we make a trip up there”.
To me, what her mother asked her to do is common sense, and should be met with an “Ok, thank you”. Instead, my SO flew off the handle and began yelling at her mom saying that she didn’t need to do that as she already knows they have the file, which of course escilated into a further fight.
When I was told about this, I asked my SO to give me the entire story, with all of the details as she was complaining about how her mother is so unfair and how her mother doesn’t value her input. I heard the details, and then correctly (in my opinion) informed her that she should have just said “Thank you” and walked away, instead of instigating a fight. She then flew off at me saying that I don’t understand anything, and that I am siding with her mother instead of supporting her.
My only statement to that was… wat?!?
It gets even better though, as last night we had a small conversation about her writing (which frankly is not very good). She claimed that I couldn’t be objective about it, and that because I didn’t enjoy the genre she writes in (Vampire “Fantasy), I couldn’t fairly critique her work.
I was appauled, and informed her that I did quite enjoy vampire books, and many other books in the “Fantasy” genre, as long as the story was gripping and the writing was good. Basically if its not Twilight level crap, it passes my radar. She got mad at me and said that Twilight (the entire series) were good books and that I didn’t know what I was talking about.After all that, she also brought up the fact that she wants to move out of her parents house as soon as possible. I told her that it would be at least 6 months to a year before we (as in I, as I am the only income bringer in the relationship) can move out of our respective parents homes and into an apartment. She got furious with me, and started acting like I betrayed her in saying that. What she doesn’t seem to realize there is that I only bring home around $1,200 a month. In this area, a low rent one bedroom shit shack is $500, and that doesn’t include utilities. Nor does it include cable or internet or food or gas or insurance or phone bills or car bills. It also doesn’t take into account that she has a 3 year old who tears everything up, screams her head off at least once a week, and at minimum we would need a 2 bedroom place, which at minimum in the area is 700. Of course, I can’t afford that, even with foodstamps and other assistance.
I honestly don’t know what to think or say. She has this idea in her head that she does no wrong, and that she isn’t the cause of the fights. She has this idea that her writing is passable and will make her a living when published. She has this idea that we will move into a house together and everything will just come together and be great. I don’t know what to do, or how to handle what I frankly see as delusional thinking. I love her to pieces and I have plans already to marry her, but I am at a loss of how to handle this…What do I do?
People say to write about what you know. I’m here to tell you, no one wants to read that, because you don’t know anything. So write about something you don’t know. And don’t be scared, ever.
Toni Morrison (via ktempest)
Haha I feel like this is something one of my creative writing professors would’ve said. He once made us write a reportage piece about someone who had to be older than 30 cause he was like “you kids don’t know shit”.(via iamacollectionofmiscellanyandtea)
I wish desperatly that someone would get this into my SO’s skull.
So, I finally decided to not let my overwhelming depression kick my ass any longer and used that boost in super badass energy to finally hammer out the idea I want to make a game out of… and that idea is ActRaiser, except in JRPG format.
See, the idea of an angel/genie/prophet gaining the powers of the gods to revive the planet after a great evil overtook it sounds like an amazing idea to me. The gods wouldn’t have been able to do anything due to a non-interventionist policy, and the only reason this is happening is because the demi-gods are not bound to the same rules. So, you play as a mortal demi-god set on a quest to restore and return the planet back to the humans, by recruiting strong beings from across the land to take out the forces that took over after the gods went away.
Its a bit convoluted at the moment, so I have quite a bit of refining to do, but I think it will be quite a fun ride to make, especially as I learn Ruby a bit more and get into scripting for various things I may need in RPG maker.
In other news, I have 2 new videos on my youtube channel. The first is a vulgar look at The Ship with a good friend of mine, and the second one is a relaxed playthrough of Lifeless Planet. It will be released weekly, and I’ve already got the next 5 weeks of footage done and ready for upload. It takes a whole lot off my back for that to be the case.
Anyways, miss you awesome folks, and I’m always up for a conversation through Kik, or here if you want.
Ever since I was a wee little one, I have always been a performer. I would sing to the top of my lungs, and dance, and play pretend all the time, eventually culminating in my joining a few bands in high school, and becoming the DM of a Local D&D group for a while as well. Lately, I’ve been doing Let’s Plays on Youtube, and I get really into them sometimes, even if I don’t get many views for the effort.
All that was said to say this: I still wanna act, and sing. So badly even, that I’ve been in 4 bands since high school, and I’ve been looking into possible joining a local theater and seeing if I can do anything, even be an extra. This all came up the other night when me and my SO were talking about our dreams, and the overall incompatibility between our dreams. Mine, is to be a performer of some sort, making my living entertaining others and allowing them to experience emotions through my work, while her dream is the get married, settle down, and basically have the 9 to 5 drab life that I have been falling into but running away from all the same.
I don’t think that I’ll be able to achieve my dream any time soon, and it could very well be a one time thing, where I go do something, get it out of my system and then go back to being a boring tech support guy. However, there is that chance, however small, that I can make something of it, and become at least known in local circles. I wanna shoot for that chance…
Introverts don’t get lonely if they don’t socialize with a lot of people, but we do get lonely if we don’t have intimate interactions on a regular basis.I have never related to a quote more in my life than I do this one right here, right now. BAM. (via reificationofnotion)
ne, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones."
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